Wednesday, May 28, 2025

Eye Update: Post DMEK surgery on Right Eye

Drawing by Thomas Starnes

About 2 weeks ago, I underwent DMEK (partial thickness cornea transplant) surgery on my right eye. The surgery was successful, but there were some issues following the surgery, so I held off writing this update until I was sure my eye was OK. 

At this point, I have undergone cornea transplants in each eye, so I have some basis of comparison, and I better understand that there can be a range of experiences among cornea transplant patients. The biggest difference between my 1st and 2nd surgery experiences is that I have more distinct memories of the first surgery (as documented in my earlier blog post). With the second surgery, I seem to have lost consciousness until it was all over. I do remember arriving early at the surgical center. I remember the nurses preparing me for surgery. I remember chatting with the anesthesiologist, but he did not start applying the anesthetic until after I was inside the OR (compared to last time, when I was already fading in and out of consciousness as they wheeled me into the OR). This time, I was wide awake as they wheeled into the OR, and I remember thinking, “Oh no, did they forget to numb me?” I remember being inside the OR and being much more aware of sounds and what the room looked like (compared to my last experience where everything seemed to be lost in bright lights and fog). From somewhere out of my sight, a music player began playing some pop music. I remember looking up and seeing the face of the anesthesiologist, who seemed to be enjoying the music. Then I remember looking at bright lights. From this point forward, I have no memory, until I heard my doctor’s voice saying, “That’s it. We’re done.” I remember being surprised that it was over so quickly. I have no memories of the surgery itself. (This was mildly disappointing, as I was hoping to compare what I saw with my previous observations of eye surgery from the patient’s point of view – but I was very relieved it was over!)

Following the surgery, I was sent home with instructions to lie down, facing up. This is so that an air bubble in my eye would push the transplant graft up against the back of my cornea. The next day, I went back to the doctor for my fist post-op visit; the eye patch was removed, computer scans of my eyes were performed, and my vision was tested. I was pleasantly surprised that vision in my right eye was not as bad as I expected (compared to last time when I was almost totally blind in my left eye following surgery). I learned that the reason my vision was so bad last time is that the doctor had used an “aggressive air bubble” (meaning higher air pressure) to hold the graft in place at the back of my cornea. This time, the graft was attaching right away, so the air bubble was “less aggressive”. Hence, my vision was comparatively better this time around (this was something that concerned me my after the previous surgery: everything I had read about DMEK suggested my vision would be “blurrier than normal” for a few days – not almost totally blind). With the graft fully attaching from day one, I seemed to be well on my way to a speedy recovery.

However, my vision began to worsen over the next couple days, and I noticed redness – even brownness - around my right eye. To make matters worse, about 2 days after the surgery I read an email notification (which had been sent the day of surgery but I hadn’t yet read it) which stated that a lab test of the donor tissue yielded the results: “rare white blood cells” and “gram stain positive cocci”. I looked up these terms; the news was not good. These results likely meant infection and probably redoing the surgery. Fortunately, on my next visit to the doctor, I learned that the lab test had been taken from the rim of the donor tissue, but was not a culture of my eye. In fact, my cornea seemed to be healing nicely. Much relieved by this good news, I went home feeling better.

Nevertheless, the vision in my right eye continued to worsen over the next few days – but this wasn’t the “ghostly fog” I experienced previously, this was more like looking through a Gaussian blur filter in Photoshop. My eye became increasingly reddish, itchy and was constantly tearing. Knowing these were signs of potential graft rejection or infection, I returned to the doctor fearing the worst. Well, it turned out that my eye had become too dry following the surgery, and the top surface of my cornea had become irritated or inflamed. While this condition was uncomfortable, it was actually very good news (no graft rejection and no redoing the surgery). The solution was simple: moisturizing eye drops. Over the next few days, the itchiness went away and my vision improved.

At the forth post-op visit, the doctor removed the suture (he used only one for this surgery, but its removal resulted in some additional irritation and tearing over the next few hours). He confirmed the graft transplant is fully attached and my cornea is healing nicely. My vision is improving.

One more difference in this surgery compared to last: the doctor placed this transplant graft slightly above my center of vision in order to avoid an area of corneal scarring. He said this might take a little longer for my vision to recover, but it meant less chance of graft rejection. 

Today, the vision is my right eye is still blurry, but significantly better than it was before the surgery. I will post more eye updates as my vision improves. I also want to post some thoughts on how the loss of vision was impacting my life and my artwork.

Friday, May 9, 2025

Eye Update: Next DMEK Surgery

Drawing by Thomas Starnes

This will be my last eye update before undergoing DMEK cornea transplant on my right eye (see my post on my left eye DMEK here). I post this info in hopes of encouraging those struggling with Fuchs Corneal Dystrophy and other eye problems.

My current situation is a mix of good and bad news. Following the DMEK on my left eye, my vision in that eye was getting dramatically better, but then stopped improving, and actually started to get just a bit worse (although still vastly improved compared to before surgery). The doctor believes this regression is due to my cataracts growing worse, and I might possibly be developing keratoconus (thinning of the cornea). Typically, patients with cataracts and Fuchs Dystrophy are treated with a double surgery: cornea transplant + cataract surgery combined. But my cataracts were so mild that the doctor recommended we do the DMEK first and then address the cataracts later (probably years down the road, or so we thought at the time). But recently the cataracts have worsened much faster than expected and will need to be addressed sooner rather than later. The keratoconus is new, and hopefully can be treated with contact lenses designed to support weakened corneas. The plan for now is to just get through the next DMEK surgery (and subsequent recovery process), and then address the cataracts and keratoconus.

The good news is that all of my eye problems are treatable; it’s just that the road to anything resembling a full visual recovery will take longer than expected. I hope to document my recovery process here on this blog, and share any info that might be helpful to those suffering with eye problems.

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One caveat to Fuchs Dystrophy sufferers: don’t wait too long to do the cornea surgeries. The longer you wait, the more chance of permanently scaring your corneas. My first doctor thought it was too soon to do the cornea transplants, so I put it off… and then I put it off some more… I waited almost slightly too long, and now I may have some mild cornea scarring in each eye even after successful DMEK surgeries. Fortunately, it’s not bad enough to significantly impact my vision too much, but I do wish I had done the surgeries a bit sooner.

Sunday, April 27, 2025

The Odysseus Machine

PC build by Thomas Starnes

About 5 years ago, I built “The Odysseus Machine”, a desktop PC for my animation/illustration work. I named my computer Odysseus after that great wanderer of Greek Mythology, but also for the unmanned spacecraft Odysseus (later renamed Ulysses) which was launched in 1990 on a highly unusual trajectory to the Sun. I think that describes my path in life: "a highly unusual trajectory".

The Odysseus Machine was probably over-equipped for my needs, but I don’t upgrade often; I tend to buy the best thing I can afford at the time and then use it for as many years as I can get away with. Below is a partial spec list (for a more complete parts list with descriptions, see my build on PCpartpicker).

CPU: i9 9900k - I primarily use Photoshop, which doesn’t really use more than 8 cores, so at the time, this was probably the best CPU you could buy for Photoshop.

GPU: Nvidia RTX 2080ti with 11GB of DDR6 VRAM – Overkill for Photoshop, but great for running multiple 4K monitors and occasional video editing.

RAM: 128GB DDR4 3200 CL16 – This is way more RAM than anyone really needs unless you are making your own Avengers Movie on your desktop, but too much RAM is better than too little.

Storage: 30 TB - includes 2 NVMe SSD drives (2TB each), 2 SATA SSD drives (4TB each), and 1 HDD (18TB). The OS is installed on one of the NVMe drives, while the other is for current projects. The SATA SSDs serve as a library and a place to store finished projects, while the 18TB HHD serves as backup/archives. In years past, I had to delete files to save drive space, but that is not an issue with this build.

Monitors: Wacom Cinitiq Pro 24” touch screen (on which I draw and paint), above it is an LG 27” HDR 4K monitor (I place reference material here), and off to the side is a smaller, older monitor (here I run programs to monitor CPU/GPU temps, hard drives, etc.) Even further to the right is the much older Commodore monitor (from 1985 and it still works!). This one is not attached to my PC. It’s connected to a VCR/DVD player, on which I can play older video reference.

Thomas Starnes art studio

Finally, I must confess that I went crazy overboard with the RGB lighting. I lost all sense of practicality here, but it was lots of fun building and figuring out how to make everything work. I think the final results are quite entertaining.

Thomas Starnes PC
Thomas Starnes working setup


Below are photos of the build in progress. First: the obligatory “parts showcase” with all the parts in their colorful boxes.

Thomas Starnes builds a PC

Next, early stage of the build in-progress: Originally, I had a GSkill 1250w PSU, but it was going bad, so later I replaced it with a Thermaltake 850w (which is plenty of power for my needs).  

Thomas Starnes PC build in progress

First "power on" test to make sure everything is working so far. No operating system installed yet. “Cable management” is a total mess at this point, but at least it works!

Thomas Starnes testing his PC

Installing the GPU (video card). I first tried horizontal orientation, before changing to a vertical mount.

Thomas Starnes building his PC

Next photos: GPU is now vertically mounted. The AIO fans have been moved to the front of the radiator, and an additional 2 case fans are now attached to the back of the radiator (partial "Push/Pull" configuration). While removing the radiator, I installed an extra two case fans on the side panel/motherboard tray. This makes a total of  8 case fanes + 3 radiator fans. If you include the 3 fans on the GPU, that is a total of 14 fans running in this build.

Thomas Starnes learns to build a PC
Thomas Starnes learning to build a PC

“Cable management” is an art form unto itself (and I am no expert), but I routed most of the cables around the back side of the case, and stored as many loose ends as possible under the PSU shroud. In this view, you can see the additional 2 case fans added to the back of the motherboard tray (I was concerned they might interfere with airflow, but it turns out the added fans actually help keep temps down a bit). Also in this view, you can see the Samsung SSDs (4TB each) plus the spinning hard drive (18TB) - plenty of storage. Lastly, I added an RGB hub to control the lighting.

Thomas Starnes learning to manage cables


The Odysseus Machine has been running for 5 years now, and I've gotten quite a lot of work done on it. Here is a short video showing off the RGB lighting effects.




Wednesday, April 23, 2025

Where Do Artists Get Their Ideas?

Years ago, I helped to design an online class for which I wrote some material on how artists get ideas - especially for creating images from imagination. Below, I have rewritten some of that material and added more recent sketches to illustrate my process for “ideation” -- the exploration and development of ideas.

So... where do artists get their ideas? Many great minds have attempted to address this question, yet definitive answers elude us - the late Harlan Ellison hilariously claimed to use an idea service in Schenectady. But seriously, there are techniques that can help you find and develop your own ideas. Below are some of my suggestions for ideation.


The Act of Sketching

Ideas may begin with doodles in sketchbooks, on pieces of typing paper, or even on a napkin in a restaurant. When sketching, let your imagination run wild. Sketch out any idea, no matter how crazy. You can decide later what works and what doesn't. Keep sketches very rough and loose. You might have many false starts before finding something that works. The important thing to understand is that the very act of sketching itself can generate new ideas. There may be a universe of new ideas out there waiting to be discovered, but you will never find them until you set pencil to paper and explore. Below are some doodles from my sketchbooks. These are quite rough and crude, but this is how many of my ideas often start.

Thomas Starnes imagination sketches
Thomas Starnes idea for comic book layout
Thomas Starnes character designs
Thomas Starnes developing a comic book page
Thomas Starnes exploring composition
Thomas Starnes explorative designs
Thomas Starnes ideas for spacecraft
Thomas Starnes page layouts
Thomas Starnes exploring concept design
Thomas Starnes page layout ideation
Thomas Starnes page layout based on 5pt grid
Thomas Starnes concept for futuristic observatory
See more of my sketches from imagination here.


Finding Order in Chaos

Have you ever looked at clouds and imagined faces in them? Our imaginations have an amazing capacity to find order in chaos. Visualizing things in random shapes is another technique for generating ideas. Try sketching random lines and shapes on paper, and then try to "see" creatures or landscapes within them.

Start with random lines and shapes
simple lines by Thomas Starnes
Now try to develop something from your random shapes
Thomas Starnes ideation process



Ideas That Don't Work

If your sketching doesn't seem to be leading anywhere, don't get frustrated. Sometimes ideas that don't work will lead to ideas that do. In designing Russia for the Reversed Front: Bonfire game, my initial sketches featured a cityscape with Soviet architecture, but it felt like something was missing. These just weren't working for me.

Thomas Starnes concepts for Russia

In playing around with the Steampunk elements, I stumbled onto the idea of using spider-like shapes, and the environment design really took off from there. In terms of concept, I think this turned into one of my more successful ideas for the Reversed Front Game (see the finished version of Russia here). It just needed the right twist, but I don't think I could have arrived at the final result without working through the early less-successful stages.

Thomas Starnes color study


Feeding Your Imagination

In my opinion, one of the best efforts to explain the genesis of ideas can be found in Alan Moore’s essay on writing comics. I won’t restate his words here (but I highly recommend you read his essay for yourself). I’ll just give my own spin on Moore’s advice: ideas seem to happen at an intersection where the objective world around you collides with your own subjective or emotional responses to the world. Each of us has our own unique inner response to life, but we also need broader life experience to fertilize our imaginations so that our ideas can grow. In years past, I have advised students to feed their imaginations by doing research and finding references, by visiting libraries and bookstores; you might read or see something that inspires you, perhaps something that leads you to more ideas (or better ideas). Also visit museums, zoos, historic sites, or places with interesting views and architecture. These places are gold mines of inspiration for artists. Take along a sketchbook and a camera to record your impressions, as well as details that may be useful as reference later. Above all, go out and experience the world for yourself. I believe that research, reference, and life experience provide raw fuel on which imagination runs.


Thursday, April 17, 2025

A Necessarily Incomplete List of Artistic Influences

 

Ink drawing of ghoul sitting at typewriter, surrounded by papers and a skull candle
Ink drawing by Frank Frazetta

Art students sometimes ask me about my artistic influences (i.e.: which artists have most influenced me), and also which artists I would recommend for aspiring artists to study (or look to for inspiration). It’s very difficult to even put together such lists, because there are just too many names. The list below is doomed to incompletion, and the omission of any artist should not be taken as a sign that I don’t hold said artist in high esteem. At very least, this list may serve as a starting point for anyone looking for inspiration. Also, these names are not in any particular order, but it's safe to say these are my biggest artistic influences. 


Early Illustrators (or "Golden Age Illustrators", 19th Century through mid 20th Century)

  • Franklin Booth
  • Charles Dana Gibson
  • Alphonse Mucha
  • J.C. Leyendecker
  • Dean Cornwell
  • Robert McGinnis
  • Albert Dorne
  • James Bama
  • Normal Rockwell


More Recent Illustrators (mid to late 20th Century forward)

  • Syd Mead
  • Frank Frazetta
  • Drew Struzan
  • Iain Mccaig
  • Thomas Blackshear


Illustrators who wrote influential books/materials on drawing:

  • Andrew Loomis
  • Arthur Guptill
  • Robert Fawcett
  • James Gurney
  • Jeff Watts (not so much his books, but his online atelier program and video lectures)


Comic Book/Comic Strip Artists (some of these were illustrators but I place them in this category because their comic work/inking technique influenced me more than their illustration work)

  • Alex Raymond
  • Hal Foster
  • John Buscema
  • Wally Wood
  • Bernie Wrightson
  • Al Williamson
  • Alex Toth
  • Alex Nino


Artists/Painters (this list is woefully incomplete, but these names first come to mind as having had the biggest impact on me over the years).

  • William-Adolphe Bouguereau
  • Nicolia Fechin
  • Ilya Repin
  • Jean-Baptiste Greuze
  • Diego Velasquez
  • John Singer Sargent
  • Michelangelo
  • Leonardo da Vinci
  • Gian Lorenzo Bernini


Again, this list is very incomplete, and very likely, I will revise it at some point, but for now (off the top of my head) these names have been the biggest influences on how I draw, and how I think about art.

Friday, April 11, 2025

Eye Update

This is an eye update for almost  months post DMEK cornea transplant surgery on my left eye (see my previous posts about my experience with Fuchs Dystrophy and DMEK here and here). I have attempted to show my current state of vision with this diagram. Vision in my left eye is dramatically improved, but I still have a slight double vision effect. Otherwise, I am able to see details and textures that I have not seen in quite a few years. Colors are brighter and more vivid. My right eye has not yet had cornea transplant, so vision remains blurred, with images fading out as illustrated on the right side in this diagram.

Diagram comparing visual acuity in left and right eyes

I am able to read fine print again without resorting to a magnifier. Also, I am getting back to drawing on actual paper (as opposed to drawing on a Wacom screen where I can enlarge everything 200x).  I am absolutely thrilled to be getting back to things which I had to set aside as the Fuchs Dystrophy progressed. However, my left eye is doing all of the work right now, and I still get this haze coming in from my right side. I look forward to the second cornea transplant which is scheduled for next month.

Wednesday, April 9, 2025

“To Z, with Love”

[with apologies to James Clavell for stealing his title of the wonderful 1967 film: “To Sir, with Love”]

Professor Frank Zamora, affectionately known to his students as "Mr. Z", taught art at the college level for over four decades. I enrolled in his Pen & Ink class at Sacramento City College (SCC) in 1992, and we have kept in touch off and on almost every since – making Mr. Z the one professor with whom I have kept in touch longer than any other. Mr. Z was by far the most inspiring instructor at SCC. Where other instructors might talk about drawing principles, Mr. Z actually demonstrated drawing principles with inspiring demos and infectious enthusiasm for art.

Illustration of art teacher with every drawing tool imaginable

Pencil drawing for the above illustration

I made this caricature as homage to Mr. Z’s methods. Since he is known for his "mixed media" techniques,I depicted him with every art tool but the kitchen sink (though he could probably find a way to use that too). I was aiming to capture something of Mr. Z's blend of academic drawing principles with "improvised chaos".

The drawing for this illustration was executed in graphite on Strathmore Water-Media board. For the painting, I tried to use most of the tools Mr. Z might use: splatter brush, stippling, razor blades, spritzer bottles, toothbrush, palette knife, color pencils, pastels, acrylic paint, gouache, ink, fingers and thumbs... (I am probably forgetting a few things).

I did not fully achieve the abstract-expressionist approach I was going for in the background, but I would like to think it evolved not unlike how Mr. Z's work develops - it's an organic process and you can't really predict the final results. Hopefully this pays homage to my teacher who inspired me so many years ago, and continues to inspire me today.